Well school started last Wednesday and with that comes no life! I go to school in the mornings have an hour to eat, then it's off to do my "intern" hours at the Training Room till about night time depending on the day. Now in my last post I wrote about my resolutions and so far...I'd say I've done fairly well. Not exceptional, but alright. I'm in a new environment and I'm trying to just get out of this shyness shell and do what I know how to and with confidence. If I have a question I try to speak up. No one will know I exist if I don't speak up and stand in the corner. So far so good.
My other resolution was to take care of myself and well, I've been trying to do just that. I'm not in an activity class at school this semester so there's no exercising when I'm school. Like I wrote earlier I ordered Insanity Workout. It is just that...Insane...ok maybe not. It's more like Cardio on crack. A whole lot of jumping and running in place...so I've noticed. Do I see results? No not yet, but it's only day three of the workout. But I have definitely felt it. Especially in my calves. So epsom salt baths = amazingness for now.
I know this post is kind of boring, but it's a start :) So until next time.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Saturday, January 8, 2011
I Gave In!!!
I opened my wallet...pulled out the credit card...and bought:
So I know these things are never guaranteed. But I find it hard to get in my vehicle and go to the gym/rec center or go out on the track. With my school/interning schedule next semester...it'll be easier to just do this at home...or so I think. We shall see!
So I know these things are never guaranteed. But I find it hard to get in my vehicle and go to the gym/rec center or go out on the track. With my school/interning schedule next semester...it'll be easier to just do this at home...or so I think. We shall see!
Friday, January 7, 2011
Off Caffeine....for now
Hello my name is Shayne and I'm addicted to caffeine. So...I think I may need the 12 steps instead of going cold turkey. My withdrawals suck! Yes, I have the ever so annoying caffeine headache. The kind of headache that could easily and so readily be curable with just a pepsi, coke, or coffee. You know, my caffeine culprits. However, with this new resolution (see previous blog post) I am attempting to take better care of my body. So...I've reduced caffeine consumption to weekends and Friday night (for a tradition of Frap Fridays)...thus I have been drinking the Delicious beverage of WATER!
But I like to think of my drinking water to be like this:
So here's to a healthier and better hydrated 2011.
The myth is 8 glasses of water a day...equivalent to 4 bottles...I'm only on number 1 right now. 3 more to go!!
But I like to think of my drinking water to be like this:
So here's to a healthier and better hydrated 2011.
The myth is 8 glasses of water a day...equivalent to 4 bottles...I'm only on number 1 right now. 3 more to go!!
Saturday, January 1, 2011
New Year Resolution(s)
Well we all know I forget my resolutions from the year before, so I decided to actually put it in writing…well typing. As I sit here I think I can only think of a couple good ones I’d like to honestly stick with.
1) Being Comfortable Being Uncomfortable
It’s an honest saying when you’re in the Athletic Training Program and something I noticed I struggle with. I’m a shy kid at heart and that’s been since I was little, but as I progress through life and now having been embarking on this journey towards my career…I noticed I’m not very good with making myself Uncomfortable. Sooo, 2011, in terms of the Athletic Training Program…lets become Comfortable being Uncomfortable. Meaning, get out of that comfort zone, don’t be afraid to step up, say something stupid, and do something wrong. Because if I continue to go along as I go, I won’t grow as an Athletic Training Student nearly as much as others. So Shayne…step it up!!
2) Love me for Me!
I’ve found that I’ve been that girl who never takes the time to actually try and love herself for me. This year…ok now last year I’ve gotten to know a girl who has soo much self-confidence, self-esteem in herself that it’s becoming contagious. She lives life for simply being able to live. She’s goal oriented, smart, and someone I’ve come to idolize. So I’m going to try and make that adjustment. I’m going to love me for me first, and who knows…maybe with that…I’ll stumble upon someone special to love as well. Aww..sappy little romantic I am. But lets remember that finding someone special is NOT the main goal here. Loving me for me also means taking care of my body as well…let that be known!
I sometimes find that resolutions are selfish, but I guess that’s what you’re supposed to do…be selfish to resolve what you could not the year before. So yes…I’m making 2011 a little selfish, hopefully it’ll be a great year where I discover someone hidden behind these walls I’ve created to be comfortable. It’s time to do some Shayne modifications. I plan on loving life, loving me, and being uncomfortable….comfortably haha.
Might I add…it’d be nice to travel more, expand my horizons ;) haha…all that fun stuff too! But again…not the main goals here.
1) Being Comfortable Being Uncomfortable
It’s an honest saying when you’re in the Athletic Training Program and something I noticed I struggle with. I’m a shy kid at heart and that’s been since I was little, but as I progress through life and now having been embarking on this journey towards my career…I noticed I’m not very good with making myself Uncomfortable. Sooo, 2011, in terms of the Athletic Training Program…lets become Comfortable being Uncomfortable. Meaning, get out of that comfort zone, don’t be afraid to step up, say something stupid, and do something wrong. Because if I continue to go along as I go, I won’t grow as an Athletic Training Student nearly as much as others. So Shayne…step it up!!
2) Love me for Me!
I’ve found that I’ve been that girl who never takes the time to actually try and love herself for me. This year…ok now last year I’ve gotten to know a girl who has soo much self-confidence, self-esteem in herself that it’s becoming contagious. She lives life for simply being able to live. She’s goal oriented, smart, and someone I’ve come to idolize. So I’m going to try and make that adjustment. I’m going to love me for me first, and who knows…maybe with that…I’ll stumble upon someone special to love as well. Aww..sappy little romantic I am. But lets remember that finding someone special is NOT the main goal here. Loving me for me also means taking care of my body as well…let that be known!
I sometimes find that resolutions are selfish, but I guess that’s what you’re supposed to do…be selfish to resolve what you could not the year before. So yes…I’m making 2011 a little selfish, hopefully it’ll be a great year where I discover someone hidden behind these walls I’ve created to be comfortable. It’s time to do some Shayne modifications. I plan on loving life, loving me, and being uncomfortable….comfortably haha.
Might I add…it’d be nice to travel more, expand my horizons ;) haha…all that fun stuff too! But again…not the main goals here.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Everyday I Question
Everyday I question the decisions I make, and why I made them. Being where I'm at now in life, being where I'm now in general, the question always pops in my mind. So many things in my life I have succumb to, and yet why? It's a question within a question. It's the question within myself. Why this? Because of this...Why that? I have always wondered whether or not that path I am on, is the right path. But if everything happens for a reason, then this is where and what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm set on this journey within a journey. This journey of life and it's many little road trips that I encounter. I am currently traveling a road that I'm unsure of where it will lead. However, it's a road that I thought I wanted to travel. Hopefully in the end, it'll be worth it. Right? I hope so. Although I do not know where I will end up in the end, I must trust in today, tomorrow, and the present. Trust that I know what I'm doing, and with hard work I can do what I'm setting out to do. I am fearful everyday that this passion that I've built will fade and I will be left stranded within a never ending sea. I am fearful of regret, and fearful of doing something wrong. But this is the path I've chosen, what comes now, is what is meant to come.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Embarrassment...such a horrible feeling.
Embarrassment is a feeling that tends to fall under my regrets list. As much as I would love to say that I don't have any regrets, that's not true. I've been in a little bit of a rut lately. Walking along a path that I lack the confidence that I should have. The will to back up my knowledge and have it continue to grow. Instead I'm filled with self-doubt, low self-esteem and confidence. A horrible mixture to be walking around.
Instead of having my head held high, it hangs low with the weight of my worries on my shoulders. So how did this all start. Simple: A tape job. May it sound strange to you all, but to me...it's understandable. I'm majoring in Athletic Training, and while working a game I attempted to tape someone, and the end product was simply awful. It's not that I can't tape, but prior to that day my confidence was lowering, and it was clear that because of that...my low self-confidence was seeping through elsewhere. I know how to tape, I try and take pride in what I'm doing, and I try to keep everything wrinkle free. I have a passion for this profession and I'm willing to do what I need/have to in order to get to where I want to be! But that tape job was unacceptable.
It only made me feel disappointed in myself. Yes, for such a small simple thing to bring me down so much...seems silly. But one of my fears is to be known as the one that doesn't know anything...or the one that can't tape. Or the "dumb one"...whatever petty little side comment someone can make. True I am my own critic, and in an ideal world, no one else's opinion should matter but my own. However, in this instance...my opinion, I felt, was spot on.
So yes I was embarrassed to have done something I know I CAN do. I was embarrassed to do that in front of my peers and future clients. I was embarrassed. I regret not fully thinking through what I was doing. I could have made what I did better by thinking it through a little more. Instead, the confidence I lacked and the slight "panic" I felt, brought myself down, and thus Regret reered it's evil head and creeped into my mind. I was disappointed, embarrassed, and ashamed. So am I more upset that I had a bad tape job? No, I am more upset that I let my self-doubt get in the way. I know I CAN do this job, I know I CAN be good if not great at it, and I know I WILL make something of myself.
I can't let one set back, set me back for my entire future. I have to stay focussed and never let my goals out of my sight. Regrets are lessons we haven't learned yet.
Instead of having my head held high, it hangs low with the weight of my worries on my shoulders. So how did this all start. Simple: A tape job. May it sound strange to you all, but to me...it's understandable. I'm majoring in Athletic Training, and while working a game I attempted to tape someone, and the end product was simply awful. It's not that I can't tape, but prior to that day my confidence was lowering, and it was clear that because of that...my low self-confidence was seeping through elsewhere. I know how to tape, I try and take pride in what I'm doing, and I try to keep everything wrinkle free. I have a passion for this profession and I'm willing to do what I need/have to in order to get to where I want to be! But that tape job was unacceptable.
It only made me feel disappointed in myself. Yes, for such a small simple thing to bring me down so much...seems silly. But one of my fears is to be known as the one that doesn't know anything...or the one that can't tape. Or the "dumb one"...whatever petty little side comment someone can make. True I am my own critic, and in an ideal world, no one else's opinion should matter but my own. However, in this instance...my opinion, I felt, was spot on.
So yes I was embarrassed to have done something I know I CAN do. I was embarrassed to do that in front of my peers and future clients. I was embarrassed. I regret not fully thinking through what I was doing. I could have made what I did better by thinking it through a little more. Instead, the confidence I lacked and the slight "panic" I felt, brought myself down, and thus Regret reered it's evil head and creeped into my mind. I was disappointed, embarrassed, and ashamed. So am I more upset that I had a bad tape job? No, I am more upset that I let my self-doubt get in the way. I know I CAN do this job, I know I CAN be good if not great at it, and I know I WILL make something of myself.
I can't let one set back, set me back for my entire future. I have to stay focussed and never let my goals out of my sight. Regrets are lessons we haven't learned yet.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
The Countdown Begins!
It's about a week and a half away folks! That's right...ESPANA!!!! Two weeks in Spain, then a week in Italy. I'm thoroughly excited! Hopefully it's a good trip! So hears to hoping!
I've gone on these trips many times before. My travels have taken me to Japan, Italy, Greece, London, France, and now Spain will be added to my list! I'm so fortunate and grateful to be given these opportunities. I just think traveling to new or I should say different countries is so awesome! It definitely opens your eyes up to a whole new world and truly seeing how different people are from around the world. So if given the opportunity, I hope you all take it!
I am venturing a guess that this trip I will be homesick! I haven't been away for about a three weeks from home. Of course my mom is accompanying me, however I will definitely miss my sister and my pup and my bed haha. So ten bucks says, yes I will experience a little homesickness while away, and I'm gonna venture a guess and say it comes during the Italy leg of the trip. I think two weeks is enough time to jam pack everything in and then head home afterwards. We'll see how this extra week will be!
Now aside from my huge summer trip, HS football camps are also starting up. The first camp starts on Friday! So I'm excited about that. This will mark the beginning of me being a Level 2 in the athletic training program. It should be interesting, and i'm definitely looking forward to it. I will be nice and DARK by the time we're done on Sunday haha. Oh well...the price you pay to become what you only dream of :) There will be another football camp but that won't start until mid/later August. So...I will July free. Which my friends and I have already begun to thinking about a little road trip. Destination...unknown. But it's in the works. So busy summer...or so it seems!
Just wanted to post a little update for whoever stumbles upon this here blog. If no one does, that's ok...just wanted to post a little journal entry then! Until next time!
I've gone on these trips many times before. My travels have taken me to Japan, Italy, Greece, London, France, and now Spain will be added to my list! I'm so fortunate and grateful to be given these opportunities. I just think traveling to new or I should say different countries is so awesome! It definitely opens your eyes up to a whole new world and truly seeing how different people are from around the world. So if given the opportunity, I hope you all take it!
I am venturing a guess that this trip I will be homesick! I haven't been away for about a three weeks from home. Of course my mom is accompanying me, however I will definitely miss my sister and my pup and my bed haha. So ten bucks says, yes I will experience a little homesickness while away, and I'm gonna venture a guess and say it comes during the Italy leg of the trip. I think two weeks is enough time to jam pack everything in and then head home afterwards. We'll see how this extra week will be!
Now aside from my huge summer trip, HS football camps are also starting up. The first camp starts on Friday! So I'm excited about that. This will mark the beginning of me being a Level 2 in the athletic training program. It should be interesting, and i'm definitely looking forward to it. I will be nice and DARK by the time we're done on Sunday haha. Oh well...the price you pay to become what you only dream of :) There will be another football camp but that won't start until mid/later August. So...I will July free. Which my friends and I have already begun to thinking about a little road trip. Destination...unknown. But it's in the works. So busy summer...or so it seems!
Just wanted to post a little update for whoever stumbles upon this here blog. If no one does, that's ok...just wanted to post a little journal entry then! Until next time!
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