WOW! It is already almost Christmas...and I have been so busy since summer has ended! Let's do a quick catch-up...I was assigned my sport assignments...and at first I wasn't happy about it, but now that my first semester with my first team is ending, I wish I could do it all over again..just because it was amazing! This just goes to show...that sometimes, life has other plans for you and if you just go along with it, you just might surprise yourself, and find you love it!!
My first semester as a senior student has ended. My next...and FINAL one arrives in January! I can't believe how time flies! Up next...figuring out what's next up in my future! Which could hopefully mean, GA-ship or Internship! I am open to both...but finding a Grad school is on top of the list.
Aside from school stuff, not much has changed. I am still the same me trying to improve myself one day at a time. I'm still a gullible hope-Ful! romantic. Trying to face all my fears head on so that I may grow!
Christmas is fast approaching and my o my, how it actually doesn't feel like it at all. There seems to be a lack of Christmas spirit going on. Probably because my Christmas this year will be missing one special person. My Grandma. She passed away in September, and ever since then...things (especially holidays) feel quite empty. I miss her every day...and yes I wish I visited her more. Things are definitely not the same knowing that she's not coming over to spend Christmas or New Year's with us. She wasn't here on Thanksgiving sneaking my dogs scraps of food. And she wasn't sitting on our couch dozing off. I miss her most and every day!
I wish I had more fun things to share, and I'm trying to catch up on at least five months or so. It's kind of hard. I'll try better next time! For now, I'm cutting this one short..and maybe later on tonight I will think of something better to write!
Friday, December 23, 2011
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
It's Only the Beginning!
WELCOME SUMMER!!!
With that I must say, if all goes as planned...this shall be a very studious summer. BUT that means I must actually get my arse into gear and start studying!
There are so many things that I must get myself prepared for...
1) Being a Senior student in the ATEP...aka Being a Level III!
Well graduation has come and gone, and I'm now officially a senior student. Granted, yes, I have technically been a senior student for a while, I've reached the zenith of the Athletic Training Educational Program. Well, maybe not exactly the zenith, I guess that would actually come at graduation. So what does being a Level III mean? Simple, work with a sport(s), actually doing rehabs, treatments, etc....as well as teaching the incoming Level II's. What this means is that I'm definitely going over my muscles (origins, insertions, actions, innervations), going over my Injury Evaluation book, going over my Therapeutic Modalities book, and well basically going over any type of resource that I have to further enhance my knowledge. This way, I'll be better prepared to work with my sports as well as help with any questions or learnings that the Level IIs have...my hopes is that I can become a great resource for them. Lets hope this plan will come into fruition!
2) GRE
Hello SATs on crack! I'm scheduled to take the GRE (Graduate Records Examination) in August. Hopefully I'll get a good score, good enough to get me into a good if not great graduate school in hopes that I can get a GA-ship as an athletic trainer there. I figured, take it over summer when I have time to study for it. Hopefully pass it with a high enough score that I won't have to worry about taking it again. This will allow me time in Winter to start studying for the BOC. That way I don't have to study for the GRE and BOC at the same time!
I guess you can kind of see that I'm more of a planner of sorts!
3) NREMT
I took the EMT course and have the option to sit for this exam. Honestly, I'm not ready to take it at this moment. However, if I'm able to schedule it sometime in the near future a little further down future...then I'll take it. This will allow me some time to study for this test as well.
Aside from studying, i'm just hoping to make this summer a good one. I know this year I'm not traveling out of country, but I'm still going to try to make the most of it! I do intend on going to Disneyland after June 3rd since Star Tours 3D opens back up then haha. yes, I'm a dork...and yes I went earlier and star tours was closed and I was a little saddened. So I shall keep whoever reads this posted if they are interested. If anyone reads this at all! Until then! Happy Summer!
Shayne
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With that I must say, if all goes as planned...this shall be a very studious summer. BUT that means I must actually get my arse into gear and start studying!
There are so many things that I must get myself prepared for...
1) Being a Senior student in the ATEP...aka Being a Level III!
Well graduation has come and gone, and I'm now officially a senior student. Granted, yes, I have technically been a senior student for a while, I've reached the zenith of the Athletic Training Educational Program. Well, maybe not exactly the zenith, I guess that would actually come at graduation. So what does being a Level III mean? Simple, work with a sport(s), actually doing rehabs, treatments, etc....as well as teaching the incoming Level II's. What this means is that I'm definitely going over my muscles (origins, insertions, actions, innervations), going over my Injury Evaluation book, going over my Therapeutic Modalities book, and well basically going over any type of resource that I have to further enhance my knowledge. This way, I'll be better prepared to work with my sports as well as help with any questions or learnings that the Level IIs have...my hopes is that I can become a great resource for them. Lets hope this plan will come into fruition!
2) GRE
Hello SATs on crack! I'm scheduled to take the GRE (Graduate Records Examination) in August. Hopefully I'll get a good score, good enough to get me into a good if not great graduate school in hopes that I can get a GA-ship as an athletic trainer there. I figured, take it over summer when I have time to study for it. Hopefully pass it with a high enough score that I won't have to worry about taking it again. This will allow me time in Winter to start studying for the BOC. That way I don't have to study for the GRE and BOC at the same time!
I guess you can kind of see that I'm more of a planner of sorts!
3) NREMT
I took the EMT course and have the option to sit for this exam. Honestly, I'm not ready to take it at this moment. However, if I'm able to schedule it sometime in the near future a little further down future...then I'll take it. This will allow me some time to study for this test as well.
Aside from studying, i'm just hoping to make this summer a good one. I know this year I'm not traveling out of country, but I'm still going to try to make the most of it! I do intend on going to Disneyland after June 3rd since Star Tours 3D opens back up then haha. yes, I'm a dork...and yes I went earlier and star tours was closed and I was a little saddened. So I shall keep whoever reads this posted if they are interested. If anyone reads this at all! Until then! Happy Summer!
Shayne
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Sunday, May 1, 2011
Stop Bugging Me!!
I've heard it been said, that if some people can bother you with their actions, or get to you...then they have power over you. I suppose it's true, and it truly makes me feel sick to my stomach to know that these two people (in particular) have that power over me. I guess you can call me an old grandma (mind you i'm almost 24) but I feel that these two people bother me the most!
One: Just act your age...maybe I shouldn't quite say that because maybe that's how people your age act. It's simple. There are things that shouldn't be said, things that can be said outside of certain areas. It bothers me so much that you come off as cocky, but you clearly mistaken it for confidence. I appreciate confident people, but cocky people, I can't stand them. You're not that amazing. But if you blowing your own head up is what it takes to fake your confidence, then fine. You will get no confidence boosters from me. I feel like you put on a front, and honestly, I appreciate real people. I've seen how you are one on one, and maybe that's just a front, and this "front" that I think you wear every day is really who you are. I feel ashamed to have thought so highly of you. But you have lost my respect a long time ago. Not that my respect means anything more than someone else's. It's sad that I can't stand looking at your face, hear your voice, and try and act friendly to you. But I will. Does this make me a hypocrite to my own views? Possibly. But I want my power back...I want you to not bug me so much. Thus...I must learn to simply just ignore what you do. It's obvious you aren't growing up any time soon.
Two: Sadly I thought I could look up to you. That I could work with you...but obviously I can't. I can see your condescending looks, your judgemental ways, and your need for constant drama. It's sickening. You are suppose to be the one higher up...you are supposed to be the "grown-up." Yet, if things don't go your way, you blame someone else. You never see your way as the wrong way. I, and I feel others, will appreciate you so much more, if you admit your wrongs and apologize. But you brush it off as some joke, as something that never happened. It's ok to be wrong! You will learn thereafter to become right. I'm in a world of judgement, and you are there judging me. Sadly, you will never get to know the REAL me. You are superficial in your ways, and thus I see your superficially. I can see you are so thirsty to be under the spotlight. To be the keynote speaker. And when people decide to turn your light off, or replace you, you become defensive, angry, annoyed, and it shows. Thus, whilst others read off of your expressions, what you have brought forward, we are now pushing back. I cannot respect you. You have lost most of the that. But! I will respect you when I can feel/tell you're respecting me. You don't have to like me, it's obvious you have already developed a preconceived notion about who I am. It's obvious you THINK you know me. Yet, you do not know any part of me. Please learn to love yourself. Love yourself so that you can learn to love others instead of constantly judging them. I am doing the same as I type this. I am re-learning to love myself. If I love myself first, there can be no outsider that can bring me down, because I brought myself up. Please, grow up, get off your powertrips, and realize, that you and so many others...all wear pants...and they are all put on the same way. One leg at a time!
**Note: I realize I write this as if I KNOW everything about these two people. But I am well aware that I'm sure I've only scratched the surface of them. Who knows, maybe if I took the time to get to know them, I would realize that we're not that much different. I understand the hypocrisy that there exists hypocrisy within this. I will be the first to admit that. However, this is simply how I feel right now.
One: Just act your age...maybe I shouldn't quite say that because maybe that's how people your age act. It's simple. There are things that shouldn't be said, things that can be said outside of certain areas. It bothers me so much that you come off as cocky, but you clearly mistaken it for confidence. I appreciate confident people, but cocky people, I can't stand them. You're not that amazing. But if you blowing your own head up is what it takes to fake your confidence, then fine. You will get no confidence boosters from me. I feel like you put on a front, and honestly, I appreciate real people. I've seen how you are one on one, and maybe that's just a front, and this "front" that I think you wear every day is really who you are. I feel ashamed to have thought so highly of you. But you have lost my respect a long time ago. Not that my respect means anything more than someone else's. It's sad that I can't stand looking at your face, hear your voice, and try and act friendly to you. But I will. Does this make me a hypocrite to my own views? Possibly. But I want my power back...I want you to not bug me so much. Thus...I must learn to simply just ignore what you do. It's obvious you aren't growing up any time soon.
Two: Sadly I thought I could look up to you. That I could work with you...but obviously I can't. I can see your condescending looks, your judgemental ways, and your need for constant drama. It's sickening. You are suppose to be the one higher up...you are supposed to be the "grown-up." Yet, if things don't go your way, you blame someone else. You never see your way as the wrong way. I, and I feel others, will appreciate you so much more, if you admit your wrongs and apologize. But you brush it off as some joke, as something that never happened. It's ok to be wrong! You will learn thereafter to become right. I'm in a world of judgement, and you are there judging me. Sadly, you will never get to know the REAL me. You are superficial in your ways, and thus I see your superficially. I can see you are so thirsty to be under the spotlight. To be the keynote speaker. And when people decide to turn your light off, or replace you, you become defensive, angry, annoyed, and it shows. Thus, whilst others read off of your expressions, what you have brought forward, we are now pushing back. I cannot respect you. You have lost most of the that. But! I will respect you when I can feel/tell you're respecting me. You don't have to like me, it's obvious you have already developed a preconceived notion about who I am. It's obvious you THINK you know me. Yet, you do not know any part of me. Please learn to love yourself. Love yourself so that you can learn to love others instead of constantly judging them. I am doing the same as I type this. I am re-learning to love myself. If I love myself first, there can be no outsider that can bring me down, because I brought myself up. Please, grow up, get off your powertrips, and realize, that you and so many others...all wear pants...and they are all put on the same way. One leg at a time!
**Note: I realize I write this as if I KNOW everything about these two people. But I am well aware that I'm sure I've only scratched the surface of them. Who knows, maybe if I took the time to get to know them, I would realize that we're not that much different. I understand the hypocrisy that there exists hypocrisy within this. I will be the first to admit that. However, this is simply how I feel right now.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Thoughts within my Head: They sometimes ruin me
Always the same old story...see someone...like someone...build them up to be more than they are...and then feel frustrated later. So please, get these thoughts out of my mind. Because what I want now, I fear I cannot have. But it's the fear that has not yet scared me away, but a fear that I want to face. Their on and off again mood towards me, makes them the hardest to read.
All I need is for one person to realize that I'm here willing to make them the happiest they have ever been. I always seem to hope that the ones that I like, will be that one person to realize this. Until then, it's their loss.
I feel so close to being done trying to make something out of nothing and my imagination that may be imagining somethere that really doesn't exist.
All I need is for one person to realize that I'm here willing to make them the happiest they have ever been. I always seem to hope that the ones that I like, will be that one person to realize this. Until then, it's their loss.
I feel so close to being done trying to make something out of nothing and my imagination that may be imagining somethere that really doesn't exist.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Thoughts of my Day
Sometimes I wish things were easier. I wish things were more comfortable for me, or that I'm more readily comfortable being uncomfortable. I wish it was easier for me to face my fears as they come. I wish it wasn't so easy to get under my skin. For the little petty things to not blow up in my mind as more substantial things. I wish life itself were easier. But if that's the case, then we'd all be lazy and do absolutely nothing to prove ourselves. I often think of things that, if I could back in time and change it, I would. I shouldn't feel as though I have regret and more regret building up inside of me. I find that I'm more paranoid than I am confident. I am more self-assured then I am vulnerable...but with that I am more naive than I am self-assured. I still have more growing to do, but I feel as if my time is short. I sometimes feel that I should already be who I should be for the better half of my life, but I know Life's Lessons will continue to come at me in full force. For after I live this life, I am determined to leave this place a better one, and knowing that I have done all that I could to have made this life amazing.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
My Deepest Fear...Fear
"What is your deepest fear?" "Spiders, death, fire, drowning...etc." My answer: Fear. I find that one emotion or feeling that dictates much of my thinking is "Fear." The fear of disappointing others, the fear of hurting others, the fear of failing, the fear of being hurt. It's fear that influences my decisions. I tend to try to travel the easier road, just because it's safe, and I have no fear in traveling down that road. However, the harder/trying road I know would make me a better person...and all the complications I will face will make me stronger if I triumph. Until recently, I haven't really noticed how much fear controls my thoughts. I thought about a career change/change in majors simply because I'm fearful of what happens next. To flee always seems to be the "easy way out," but who am I if I continuously flee everything that I see as challenging, hard, or scary? I'd be weak. I don't want to walk away from this experience as weak. I want to walk out of this experience as stronger, wiser, and better...even if that means coming out of this with battle scars. Because let us remember, "Mistakes are just lessons we haven't learned yet." I'm sure there are many lessons that I have not learned yet, and many mistakes await me. But that's the challenge that I'm willing to take, whether confidently or even...fearfully.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Decisions, Decisions
Decisions, decisions...I find that I have the hardest time making them when they're not just clean cut and simple. There's one decision that I feel is super important and I'll probably need to make up my mind about it in a couple weeks.
In the beginning the answer was so clear to me. What my decision would be. And now as time goes on and little things change, my mind becomes convoluted with self-doubt, fear, and confusion. I've asked all everyone I could think of about it, but I believe I'm asking the wrong people. Who should I work with? What sport should I work with? Will I even get the sports I want? Am I even good enough to work with this sport? All these questions and I have no clear cut answer to them. It mostly stems from my lack of confidence. The I don't knows, the maybes, the what ifs. All these questions that transpire from other questions. All I need is one good answer.
I've been trying to figure out this decision for almost a month now, but never has it weighed heavier in my mind than now. To experience different things at a different setting. Knowing that within my profession, you need to be comfortable being uncomfortable, but at the same time...I'd like to be somewhere that I can at least enjoy being uncomfortable! Where the positives outweighs that uncomfort so much so that it becomes a minute problem. It's like a burden has decided to make it's home on my shoulders, and just continue to grow. People outside of this program may not understand it, people may not understand why it weighs so heavy...but I do. Quite frankly...it's winning.
I sometimes wish it was already made for me. So time will tell. A day will come where I write down six sports/venues/ACI's and I'll have to wait to see which I get. All I need to figure out now is what to write.
In the beginning the answer was so clear to me. What my decision would be. And now as time goes on and little things change, my mind becomes convoluted with self-doubt, fear, and confusion. I've asked all everyone I could think of about it, but I believe I'm asking the wrong people. Who should I work with? What sport should I work with? Will I even get the sports I want? Am I even good enough to work with this sport? All these questions and I have no clear cut answer to them. It mostly stems from my lack of confidence. The I don't knows, the maybes, the what ifs. All these questions that transpire from other questions. All I need is one good answer.
I've been trying to figure out this decision for almost a month now, but never has it weighed heavier in my mind than now. To experience different things at a different setting. Knowing that within my profession, you need to be comfortable being uncomfortable, but at the same time...I'd like to be somewhere that I can at least enjoy being uncomfortable! Where the positives outweighs that uncomfort so much so that it becomes a minute problem. It's like a burden has decided to make it's home on my shoulders, and just continue to grow. People outside of this program may not understand it, people may not understand why it weighs so heavy...but I do. Quite frankly...it's winning.
I sometimes wish it was already made for me. So time will tell. A day will come where I write down six sports/venues/ACI's and I'll have to wait to see which I get. All I need to figure out now is what to write.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
A Post with Topics that Don't Go Hand in Hand
People may be Strange...even Weird, but who wants to be normal? Seriously, what is the standard to be considered, "Normal?" I find that I've been called "Weird" so many times...and I take it as a good thing. I'm not that over the top type of weird, but I supposed I don't fall under, "Normal." Weirdness to me is like being unique. If someone calls you weird, take it as a compliment. It only means that that person sees something in you that they don't see in everyone else. I've come to realize, as of late, if I get along with these "weird" people, then ya...I am unique :)
Ladies and Gents...I have some definition in my calves, lost some chubs in my face, and my two pack is more pronounced! Does Insanity workout work? I would say so. BUT I still have shin splints which sucks. So I take extra rest days. (FYI: If you too may be experiencing shin splints, try stretching out your calf muscles...I have a tight Soleus muscle, so I'm guessing it's a factor in these shin splints.)
Ok...so that happy fuzzy everything is pink, red, and white with hearts and flowers day is coming up. And I'm not going to waste my time saying how I don't have a Valentine and I think in my life have only truly had one...I'm going to write about those cute little Valentine's Day cards we used to give out to our classmates. This just reaffirms how much of a dreamer, wisher, and in some ways, gullable person I am/was. I was always that girl, that when she got a Valentine's Day card in her box or on her desk from someone she liked and it said something like, "I Dig You." I completely believed it. As I remembered this little story, I realize how much I have NOT changed. No, I don't get little cutesy cards from people anymore, but I am seemingly still THAT gullible to think, that the nicest/smallest gestures mean something. I guess I should've learned my lesson when I realized that the boy that gave me that card...didn't Dig me at all.
But nonetheless, I am still a dreamer/wisher, and although there are a couple people I think that I would give that "I Dig You" card to, I shall stick to my most faithful Valentine's...Ben and Jerry! O wait, I'm lactose intolerant, so there goes that idea!! hahaha...horrible joke no? But seriously, I wish you all a great and wonderful Valentine's Day.
Ladies and Gents...I have some definition in my calves, lost some chubs in my face, and my two pack is more pronounced! Does Insanity workout work? I would say so. BUT I still have shin splints which sucks. So I take extra rest days. (FYI: If you too may be experiencing shin splints, try stretching out your calf muscles...I have a tight Soleus muscle, so I'm guessing it's a factor in these shin splints.)
Ok...so that happy fuzzy everything is pink, red, and white with hearts and flowers day is coming up. And I'm not going to waste my time saying how I don't have a Valentine and I think in my life have only truly had one...I'm going to write about those cute little Valentine's Day cards we used to give out to our classmates. This just reaffirms how much of a dreamer, wisher, and in some ways, gullable person I am/was. I was always that girl, that when she got a Valentine's Day card in her box or on her desk from someone she liked and it said something like, "I Dig You." I completely believed it. As I remembered this little story, I realize how much I have NOT changed. No, I don't get little cutesy cards from people anymore, but I am seemingly still THAT gullible to think, that the nicest/smallest gestures mean something. I guess I should've learned my lesson when I realized that the boy that gave me that card...didn't Dig me at all.
But nonetheless, I am still a dreamer/wisher, and although there are a couple people I think that I would give that "I Dig You" card to, I shall stick to my most faithful Valentine's...Ben and Jerry! O wait, I'm lactose intolerant, so there goes that idea!! hahaha...horrible joke no? But seriously, I wish you all a great and wonderful Valentine's Day.
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Friday, January 28, 2011
It's the Little Things...
As I get older I come to realize it's truly the little things that matter the most. Today I had said something that at the time I thought was funny. But instead I had inadvertantly hurt someone's feelings. I meant what I said one way, they took a different way (which looking back I can definitely understand.) I realized I was wrong and apologized...probably on the list of the most sincere apologies. When I say jokes my intentions are never to hurt someone's feelings, so when I do I feel horrible. Because if I put myself in their shoes, I would be equally hurt. Thus, I handle things as if this happened to me, how would I want the other person to respond. Not to take anything away from my reaction because it was genuine. So I apologized. It was just right to.
As of late I have truly begun to appreciate small gestures, kindness, please, thank you, you're welcome...etc. They are simple words that don't take a lot to say, yet they are words extremely full and fulfilling, but only if you truly mean them! Today I truly meant what I said. Sometimes you just don't realize what little it takes to truly make someone's day a little better.
Just some words of mine for your thoughts. :)
With that...have a great day!
As of late I have truly begun to appreciate small gestures, kindness, please, thank you, you're welcome...etc. They are simple words that don't take a lot to say, yet they are words extremely full and fulfilling, but only if you truly mean them! Today I truly meant what I said. Sometimes you just don't realize what little it takes to truly make someone's day a little better.
Just some words of mine for your thoughts. :)
With that...have a great day!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
MTSS and Gilbere Forte
Two topics that do not go hand in hand, but tonight...I'm making them.
Let me start with my complaint. For the past week, I've been doing Insanity workout and what do I notice yesterday while doing Cardio/Plyo?? I have Medial Tibial Stress Syndrome (aka: Shin Splints)...It's very annoying!!! Thought I'd share. It's definitely not the best feeling in the world and it's mostly an annoying type feeling...luckily today was Rest day...but i'm sure once I start doing more jumping/running in place...I shall feel them again.
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Gilbere Forte. Anyone hear of him? I heard of his name through a friend, previewed his album on itunes and quickly clicked "Purchase." I love it...it seems...original...and I like that. Here's my favorite song...to which I think is the SEXIEST sounding song ever!
Let me start with my complaint. For the past week, I've been doing Insanity workout and what do I notice yesterday while doing Cardio/Plyo?? I have Medial Tibial Stress Syndrome (aka: Shin Splints)...It's very annoying!!! Thought I'd share. It's definitely not the best feeling in the world and it's mostly an annoying type feeling...luckily today was Rest day...but i'm sure once I start doing more jumping/running in place...I shall feel them again.
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Gilbere Forte. Anyone hear of him? I heard of his name through a friend, previewed his album on itunes and quickly clicked "Purchase." I love it...it seems...original...and I like that. Here's my favorite song...to which I think is the SEXIEST sounding song ever!
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Let the Insanity Begin!
Well school started last Wednesday and with that comes no life! I go to school in the mornings have an hour to eat, then it's off to do my "intern" hours at the Training Room till about night time depending on the day. Now in my last post I wrote about my resolutions and so far...I'd say I've done fairly well. Not exceptional, but alright. I'm in a new environment and I'm trying to just get out of this shyness shell and do what I know how to and with confidence. If I have a question I try to speak up. No one will know I exist if I don't speak up and stand in the corner. So far so good.
My other resolution was to take care of myself and well, I've been trying to do just that. I'm not in an activity class at school this semester so there's no exercising when I'm school. Like I wrote earlier I ordered Insanity Workout. It is just that...Insane...ok maybe not. It's more like Cardio on crack. A whole lot of jumping and running in place...so I've noticed. Do I see results? No not yet, but it's only day three of the workout. But I have definitely felt it. Especially in my calves. So epsom salt baths = amazingness for now.
I know this post is kind of boring, but it's a start :) So until next time.
My other resolution was to take care of myself and well, I've been trying to do just that. I'm not in an activity class at school this semester so there's no exercising when I'm school. Like I wrote earlier I ordered Insanity Workout. It is just that...Insane...ok maybe not. It's more like Cardio on crack. A whole lot of jumping and running in place...so I've noticed. Do I see results? No not yet, but it's only day three of the workout. But I have definitely felt it. Especially in my calves. So epsom salt baths = amazingness for now.
I know this post is kind of boring, but it's a start :) So until next time.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
I Gave In!!!
I opened my wallet...pulled out the credit card...and bought:
So I know these things are never guaranteed. But I find it hard to get in my vehicle and go to the gym/rec center or go out on the track. With my school/interning schedule next semester...it'll be easier to just do this at home...or so I think. We shall see!
So I know these things are never guaranteed. But I find it hard to get in my vehicle and go to the gym/rec center or go out on the track. With my school/interning schedule next semester...it'll be easier to just do this at home...or so I think. We shall see!
Friday, January 7, 2011
Off Caffeine....for now
Hello my name is Shayne and I'm addicted to caffeine. So...I think I may need the 12 steps instead of going cold turkey. My withdrawals suck! Yes, I have the ever so annoying caffeine headache. The kind of headache that could easily and so readily be curable with just a pepsi, coke, or coffee. You know, my caffeine culprits. However, with this new resolution (see previous blog post) I am attempting to take better care of my body. So...I've reduced caffeine consumption to weekends and Friday night (for a tradition of Frap Fridays)...thus I have been drinking the Delicious beverage of WATER!
But I like to think of my drinking water to be like this:
So here's to a healthier and better hydrated 2011.
The myth is 8 glasses of water a day...equivalent to 4 bottles...I'm only on number 1 right now. 3 more to go!!
But I like to think of my drinking water to be like this:
So here's to a healthier and better hydrated 2011.
The myth is 8 glasses of water a day...equivalent to 4 bottles...I'm only on number 1 right now. 3 more to go!!
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Saturday, January 1, 2011
New Year Resolution(s)
Well we all know I forget my resolutions from the year before, so I decided to actually put it in writing…well typing. As I sit here I think I can only think of a couple good ones I’d like to honestly stick with.
1) Being Comfortable Being Uncomfortable
It’s an honest saying when you’re in the Athletic Training Program and something I noticed I struggle with. I’m a shy kid at heart and that’s been since I was little, but as I progress through life and now having been embarking on this journey towards my career…I noticed I’m not very good with making myself Uncomfortable. Sooo, 2011, in terms of the Athletic Training Program…lets become Comfortable being Uncomfortable. Meaning, get out of that comfort zone, don’t be afraid to step up, say something stupid, and do something wrong. Because if I continue to go along as I go, I won’t grow as an Athletic Training Student nearly as much as others. So Shayne…step it up!!
2) Love me for Me!
I’ve found that I’ve been that girl who never takes the time to actually try and love herself for me. This year…ok now last year I’ve gotten to know a girl who has soo much self-confidence, self-esteem in herself that it’s becoming contagious. She lives life for simply being able to live. She’s goal oriented, smart, and someone I’ve come to idolize. So I’m going to try and make that adjustment. I’m going to love me for me first, and who knows…maybe with that…I’ll stumble upon someone special to love as well. Aww..sappy little romantic I am. But lets remember that finding someone special is NOT the main goal here. Loving me for me also means taking care of my body as well…let that be known!
I sometimes find that resolutions are selfish, but I guess that’s what you’re supposed to do…be selfish to resolve what you could not the year before. So yes…I’m making 2011 a little selfish, hopefully it’ll be a great year where I discover someone hidden behind these walls I’ve created to be comfortable. It’s time to do some Shayne modifications. I plan on loving life, loving me, and being uncomfortable….comfortably haha.
Might I add…it’d be nice to travel more, expand my horizons ;) haha…all that fun stuff too! But again…not the main goals here.
1) Being Comfortable Being Uncomfortable
It’s an honest saying when you’re in the Athletic Training Program and something I noticed I struggle with. I’m a shy kid at heart and that’s been since I was little, but as I progress through life and now having been embarking on this journey towards my career…I noticed I’m not very good with making myself Uncomfortable. Sooo, 2011, in terms of the Athletic Training Program…lets become Comfortable being Uncomfortable. Meaning, get out of that comfort zone, don’t be afraid to step up, say something stupid, and do something wrong. Because if I continue to go along as I go, I won’t grow as an Athletic Training Student nearly as much as others. So Shayne…step it up!!
2) Love me for Me!
I’ve found that I’ve been that girl who never takes the time to actually try and love herself for me. This year…ok now last year I’ve gotten to know a girl who has soo much self-confidence, self-esteem in herself that it’s becoming contagious. She lives life for simply being able to live. She’s goal oriented, smart, and someone I’ve come to idolize. So I’m going to try and make that adjustment. I’m going to love me for me first, and who knows…maybe with that…I’ll stumble upon someone special to love as well. Aww..sappy little romantic I am. But lets remember that finding someone special is NOT the main goal here. Loving me for me also means taking care of my body as well…let that be known!
I sometimes find that resolutions are selfish, but I guess that’s what you’re supposed to do…be selfish to resolve what you could not the year before. So yes…I’m making 2011 a little selfish, hopefully it’ll be a great year where I discover someone hidden behind these walls I’ve created to be comfortable. It’s time to do some Shayne modifications. I plan on loving life, loving me, and being uncomfortable….comfortably haha.
Might I add…it’d be nice to travel more, expand my horizons ;) haha…all that fun stuff too! But again…not the main goals here.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Everyday I Question
Everyday I question the decisions I make, and why I made them. Being where I'm at now in life, being where I'm now in general, the question always pops in my mind. So many things in my life I have succumb to, and yet why? It's a question within a question. It's the question within myself. Why this? Because of this...Why that? I have always wondered whether or not that path I am on, is the right path. But if everything happens for a reason, then this is where and what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm set on this journey within a journey. This journey of life and it's many little road trips that I encounter. I am currently traveling a road that I'm unsure of where it will lead. However, it's a road that I thought I wanted to travel. Hopefully in the end, it'll be worth it. Right? I hope so. Although I do not know where I will end up in the end, I must trust in today, tomorrow, and the present. Trust that I know what I'm doing, and with hard work I can do what I'm setting out to do. I am fearful everyday that this passion that I've built will fade and I will be left stranded within a never ending sea. I am fearful of regret, and fearful of doing something wrong. But this is the path I've chosen, what comes now, is what is meant to come.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Embarrassment...such a horrible feeling.
Embarrassment is a feeling that tends to fall under my regrets list. As much as I would love to say that I don't have any regrets, that's not true. I've been in a little bit of a rut lately. Walking along a path that I lack the confidence that I should have. The will to back up my knowledge and have it continue to grow. Instead I'm filled with self-doubt, low self-esteem and confidence. A horrible mixture to be walking around.
Instead of having my head held high, it hangs low with the weight of my worries on my shoulders. So how did this all start. Simple: A tape job. May it sound strange to you all, but to me...it's understandable. I'm majoring in Athletic Training, and while working a game I attempted to tape someone, and the end product was simply awful. It's not that I can't tape, but prior to that day my confidence was lowering, and it was clear that because of that...my low self-confidence was seeping through elsewhere. I know how to tape, I try and take pride in what I'm doing, and I try to keep everything wrinkle free. I have a passion for this profession and I'm willing to do what I need/have to in order to get to where I want to be! But that tape job was unacceptable.
It only made me feel disappointed in myself. Yes, for such a small simple thing to bring me down so much...seems silly. But one of my fears is to be known as the one that doesn't know anything...or the one that can't tape. Or the "dumb one"...whatever petty little side comment someone can make. True I am my own critic, and in an ideal world, no one else's opinion should matter but my own. However, in this instance...my opinion, I felt, was spot on.
So yes I was embarrassed to have done something I know I CAN do. I was embarrassed to do that in front of my peers and future clients. I was embarrassed. I regret not fully thinking through what I was doing. I could have made what I did better by thinking it through a little more. Instead, the confidence I lacked and the slight "panic" I felt, brought myself down, and thus Regret reered it's evil head and creeped into my mind. I was disappointed, embarrassed, and ashamed. So am I more upset that I had a bad tape job? No, I am more upset that I let my self-doubt get in the way. I know I CAN do this job, I know I CAN be good if not great at it, and I know I WILL make something of myself.
I can't let one set back, set me back for my entire future. I have to stay focussed and never let my goals out of my sight. Regrets are lessons we haven't learned yet.
Instead of having my head held high, it hangs low with the weight of my worries on my shoulders. So how did this all start. Simple: A tape job. May it sound strange to you all, but to me...it's understandable. I'm majoring in Athletic Training, and while working a game I attempted to tape someone, and the end product was simply awful. It's not that I can't tape, but prior to that day my confidence was lowering, and it was clear that because of that...my low self-confidence was seeping through elsewhere. I know how to tape, I try and take pride in what I'm doing, and I try to keep everything wrinkle free. I have a passion for this profession and I'm willing to do what I need/have to in order to get to where I want to be! But that tape job was unacceptable.
It only made me feel disappointed in myself. Yes, for such a small simple thing to bring me down so much...seems silly. But one of my fears is to be known as the one that doesn't know anything...or the one that can't tape. Or the "dumb one"...whatever petty little side comment someone can make. True I am my own critic, and in an ideal world, no one else's opinion should matter but my own. However, in this instance...my opinion, I felt, was spot on.
So yes I was embarrassed to have done something I know I CAN do. I was embarrassed to do that in front of my peers and future clients. I was embarrassed. I regret not fully thinking through what I was doing. I could have made what I did better by thinking it through a little more. Instead, the confidence I lacked and the slight "panic" I felt, brought myself down, and thus Regret reered it's evil head and creeped into my mind. I was disappointed, embarrassed, and ashamed. So am I more upset that I had a bad tape job? No, I am more upset that I let my self-doubt get in the way. I know I CAN do this job, I know I CAN be good if not great at it, and I know I WILL make something of myself.
I can't let one set back, set me back for my entire future. I have to stay focussed and never let my goals out of my sight. Regrets are lessons we haven't learned yet.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
The Countdown Begins!
It's about a week and a half away folks! That's right...ESPANA!!!! Two weeks in Spain, then a week in Italy. I'm thoroughly excited! Hopefully it's a good trip! So hears to hoping!
I've gone on these trips many times before. My travels have taken me to Japan, Italy, Greece, London, France, and now Spain will be added to my list! I'm so fortunate and grateful to be given these opportunities. I just think traveling to new or I should say different countries is so awesome! It definitely opens your eyes up to a whole new world and truly seeing how different people are from around the world. So if given the opportunity, I hope you all take it!
I am venturing a guess that this trip I will be homesick! I haven't been away for about a three weeks from home. Of course my mom is accompanying me, however I will definitely miss my sister and my pup and my bed haha. So ten bucks says, yes I will experience a little homesickness while away, and I'm gonna venture a guess and say it comes during the Italy leg of the trip. I think two weeks is enough time to jam pack everything in and then head home afterwards. We'll see how this extra week will be!
Now aside from my huge summer trip, HS football camps are also starting up. The first camp starts on Friday! So I'm excited about that. This will mark the beginning of me being a Level 2 in the athletic training program. It should be interesting, and i'm definitely looking forward to it. I will be nice and DARK by the time we're done on Sunday haha. Oh well...the price you pay to become what you only dream of :) There will be another football camp but that won't start until mid/later August. So...I will July free. Which my friends and I have already begun to thinking about a little road trip. Destination...unknown. But it's in the works. So busy summer...or so it seems!
Just wanted to post a little update for whoever stumbles upon this here blog. If no one does, that's ok...just wanted to post a little journal entry then! Until next time!
I've gone on these trips many times before. My travels have taken me to Japan, Italy, Greece, London, France, and now Spain will be added to my list! I'm so fortunate and grateful to be given these opportunities. I just think traveling to new or I should say different countries is so awesome! It definitely opens your eyes up to a whole new world and truly seeing how different people are from around the world. So if given the opportunity, I hope you all take it!
I am venturing a guess that this trip I will be homesick! I haven't been away for about a three weeks from home. Of course my mom is accompanying me, however I will definitely miss my sister and my pup and my bed haha. So ten bucks says, yes I will experience a little homesickness while away, and I'm gonna venture a guess and say it comes during the Italy leg of the trip. I think two weeks is enough time to jam pack everything in and then head home afterwards. We'll see how this extra week will be!
Now aside from my huge summer trip, HS football camps are also starting up. The first camp starts on Friday! So I'm excited about that. This will mark the beginning of me being a Level 2 in the athletic training program. It should be interesting, and i'm definitely looking forward to it. I will be nice and DARK by the time we're done on Sunday haha. Oh well...the price you pay to become what you only dream of :) There will be another football camp but that won't start until mid/later August. So...I will July free. Which my friends and I have already begun to thinking about a little road trip. Destination...unknown. But it's in the works. So busy summer...or so it seems!
Just wanted to post a little update for whoever stumbles upon this here blog. If no one does, that's ok...just wanted to post a little journal entry then! Until next time!
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Life's Unexpectancies and Expectancies
So today it kind of hit me, of how fast life goes. I know, I'm only 22 going on 23 soon, and I feel like life has just blown by! In two years, I'll be graduating and hopefully going somewhere for Grad School. Then 2-3 more years and i'm out in the world as a big kid! So what will change? I have no idea! A lot of my friends are so willing to simply up and leave for some big city. But me...i'm a little more timid towards that. Maybe that's just who I am. I want to go on and explore and move somewhere that's not here. But at the same time, I don't want to be far from my family because i'm so close to them. It's funny how things work! And how fast they do! I suppose that time will tell. I just have to remember and keep an open mind to everything. Try not to be afraid of new experiences, because I am only given one life, and I do truly want to make it the best it can possibly be! Is it weird that i'm listening to Pandora and then Kelly Clarkson's song "Breakaway" comes on haha. Maybe this is a sign that i'll be just fine :) I sure hope so! It's what to be expected...to grow up and experience things. I guess I do love being a "kid."
As of late, I do in fact enjoy life's unexpecatancies as well. :D Just thought I'd write this little shibby of a post to get it off my mind!
As of late, I do in fact enjoy life's unexpecatancies as well. :D Just thought I'd write this little shibby of a post to get it off my mind!
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Whaaaa
Lets see...an update since the last?? I suppose so! Well last week we got out official certificates of getting into the ATEP!!! YAY! It also came with our information packet full of dates and things to know. One of the things that stuck out to me was the fitness part. We're expected or at least should be able to carry 50lbs. for about 100yards haha. Ok...now I've never tried, but I'm pretty sure I will struggle with this part...I'm not gonna lie!! I have tiny chicken arms haha. SOOOOO after I read that...I said, "well that's great motivation to get back into shape" since I have been wanting to. I do do karate, but it's only once a week because we're renting the place out. I was doing P90x...but of course I've been fluctuating with that. So I pigged out this weekend, and I'm trying to mentally prepare for the task at hand. To get fit, and put on muscle...not manly muscles...or body building muslces...but enough so that I can lug 50lbs for 100yds without struggling as much as I would now! Which also reminds me that I need to do my physical. So much to do!
Hmmm...and asides from that...it's been the same ol' same ol'. School and trying to get things done! It's crazy, but this semester is only 2 and a half weeks!!! EEK! It seriously went by SO FAST! I think I always say this, but I remember the first day of every class! It's crazy to think that it's already almost over and Summer is fast approaching!! I'm shooting for a 4.0 this semester, lets hope I can pull it off!! So far it's looking good.
Speaking of Summer....at the end of June my Mom and I will be heading for good ol' ESPANA!!! We'll be traveling Spain for 10 days, and then it's off to Italy for a week! So big things are happening, and I'm sure I will be homesick towards the end of the trip. It's probably a guaranteed thing. I don't remember when we're coming back...I was hoping we'd be back by the time of the FC Gold Pride/Sky Blue FC game, but i'm not quite sure. I should check on that...I'm thinking I won't. Darn! Anyways...I've been sitting here watching Golden Girls haha...oh loverly. Now...I'm off to be more productive. Or so I hope! So here's to getting back into shape and looking forward to hopefully some good things to come! Until Next Time!
Hmmm...and asides from that...it's been the same ol' same ol'. School and trying to get things done! It's crazy, but this semester is only 2 and a half weeks!!! EEK! It seriously went by SO FAST! I think I always say this, but I remember the first day of every class! It's crazy to think that it's already almost over and Summer is fast approaching!! I'm shooting for a 4.0 this semester, lets hope I can pull it off!! So far it's looking good.
Speaking of Summer....at the end of June my Mom and I will be heading for good ol' ESPANA!!! We'll be traveling Spain for 10 days, and then it's off to Italy for a week! So big things are happening, and I'm sure I will be homesick towards the end of the trip. It's probably a guaranteed thing. I don't remember when we're coming back...I was hoping we'd be back by the time of the FC Gold Pride/Sky Blue FC game, but i'm not quite sure. I should check on that...I'm thinking I won't. Darn! Anyways...I've been sitting here watching Golden Girls haha...oh loverly. Now...I'm off to be more productive. Or so I hope! So here's to getting back into shape and looking forward to hopefully some good things to come! Until Next Time!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
YAY-Whoo
It has been a long awaited moment for yesterday. The day spanned out...mighty fine! I got to my first class and the class before us were listening to showtunes...it was then that I said to myself, "Today is going to be a good day." So I hoped! Classes went by, and the weather turned to something awful. Dark, dreary, windy, and then rain...and then a sudden heavy onset of HAIL!!! Afterwards it looked like it had snowed! Yet, in the midst of it all I finally got the email I have been waiting for, for what seems to be a month! I was accepted into the Athletic Training program! This equates to a very happy me :D I now begin to start this new chapter in my life starting next semester and I am sooooo excited! Like I've said, "I feel Happier than a Bird with a French Fry!" Unfortunately, one of my good buddies didn't get in...he's "contesting" it tomorrow, so if all goes well...then by some time tomorrow...I could possibly be "Happier than a bird with a hamburger." My friend deserves this just as much as everyone else who was accepted does...so here's to hoping!
Now aside from the wonderful news...what can I say? There's really nothing much more I can talk about. I could talk about school and classes, but that seems boring...since nothing seems to change...nothing really exciting has happened in the past month. I did go to Six Flags with my friend and X2...ya...I thought I was going to die...seirously! But we conquered about 9 rides I think. It was awesome! Then lets fast forward some to one of the best times of the year...The Women's NCAA Basketball Tournament. I know...some may hate Women's basketball...I love it! Especially UConn and yes their 78 game win streak. It's simply awesome! for some reason...I really love this group. I mean, don't get me wrong...I've been a "newbie" fan since the Sue Bird days...but this team...I really liked! I'm sure most of you know about UConn's greatness...so I will leave it at that! I was happy they won!
Umm...there's really nothing else I can think of to report, I know my blog's pretty lame, but it keeps me entertained. I'm off to study some Biomech now...I hope everyone or whoever may have stumbled upon this and reached this far...is having a great day! Until Next Time!
Now aside from the wonderful news...what can I say? There's really nothing much more I can talk about. I could talk about school and classes, but that seems boring...since nothing seems to change...nothing really exciting has happened in the past month. I did go to Six Flags with my friend and X2...ya...I thought I was going to die...seirously! But we conquered about 9 rides I think. It was awesome! Then lets fast forward some to one of the best times of the year...The Women's NCAA Basketball Tournament. I know...some may hate Women's basketball...I love it! Especially UConn and yes their 78 game win streak. It's simply awesome! for some reason...I really love this group. I mean, don't get me wrong...I've been a "newbie" fan since the Sue Bird days...but this team...I really liked! I'm sure most of you know about UConn's greatness...so I will leave it at that! I was happy they won!
Umm...there's really nothing else I can think of to report, I know my blog's pretty lame, but it keeps me entertained. I'm off to study some Biomech now...I hope everyone or whoever may have stumbled upon this and reached this far...is having a great day! Until Next Time!
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